Friday, March 6, 2009

some how.. i feel sorry for whatever that i've said.
I don't know i'm feeling so lost over the pass few days. I don't know what to do.. or why i am feeling this way.

Friday, March 06, 2009

Ros was baking cookies at 10+ 11 pm at night yesterday. Just because i said i would want cookies randomly in some sms and that maybe the day ended badly, i wasn't very please with her and i guess she wasn't very please with me to.. At that hour of the night.. baking cookies and saying sorry. I'm speechless, its not your fault, you didn't do anything wrong. I cried last night. I told jun alot of stuff, alot of stuff that i've been hiding from her just cause i didn't have the courage or the right time to bring it up but well i did it last night. As in she's got the hints that i'm throwing at her all this while.. i stayed up till 2+am. (while the one who was suppose to stay up and finish work, didn't.)

Jun rush assignment and slept at 3.30+/-

Ros brought the cookies to school today, was suppose to get it from her but no chance. I met up with the guys(sec sch) and i was drag to tamah jurong to have dinner. We ate zhu chao. Poor ros have to bring the cookies back again. oh and she fell this morning, some how, had some deep scratches.

Anyway the people who turned up, liang, angelia, hao wei, zhen, jie, foo, eric and siew yu. We were planning for a trip to certain parts of Malaysia during june. After dinner, we went to beauty world and played lan. We played left4dead and abit of cs. And we went home.

Jun so nice, called me and ask if i'm at timah and if i needed a lift, i wish i could, not for the lift but just cause i wanted to see her and to make sure that we are still good with each other. No huge impact on attutide towards one another after the conversation we had the night before. I just wanted to make sure.

I keep texting ros. Begging my friend to lend me his phone so i can change my sim card in case she reaches home and wants to call me.. i text a few times. Band should end at 8pm but she called at 7.45 or so to ask if we can still make it to meet and i said that it wasn't possible. 9pm i texted, 1hr you still not home yet. 9.30 i texted again. still no... 10 still can't get through the phone cause her battery was flat. I'm getting abit pissed. Call call call either don pick up or hang up.. or text with no reply. Bloody hell i reach home at 12.30 and tried the last few time and i gave up. She can sleep all she wants or do whatever she wants to do. I'm really sick of it. I'm sick of having to wait by the phone. I'm sick of giving my fastest reply possible while i have to wait bloody long for one.

It all started every since she started school i guess.. she's never been home early. Maybe for once the phone died and she rush home early and called me when she's home. She seems to be always borrowing phone from guys. (i don't like, i rather you not calling. i know you call cause you miss me and that i matter to you but its ok.. i know it.. just.. not from a guy please.)

I can't stand it when she can just knock off like that. I managed to last the whole day with 4hrs. She goes to school, i go to work, don't even try giving me that excuse. I'm freaking tired as well but i seem to bother much more. (and i hate it.)

I can't stand it. I never needed my girlfriend to be missy nice. She can jolly well give chocolates to whoever. I don't need her to pacify everyone on the planet, doing something different from the others.

I can't stand it when she mentioned buying boxers for her guy senior. I never wanted a girlfriend who is 'fun', in that sense. Fun gift yes, buy it for your own girlfriends, buy it for your brother, for your father so be, but you are buying for a who? what?.. (you didn't even buy for me la. and i've got friends who give me boxers before. friend's who are not very close. I take them as horny. Fun. and in a bad mean way. slutty.. and fair enough, one of my bro's got that girl to *censored* with him. I don't want you to be that way.. to me, it gives a very wrong impression, and mind you, yours is very wrong already. Well known ok..)

I find i cannot accept alot of the stuff that she does.. but i didn't say it out cause after all.. that's the way she is. I don't like it, doesn't mean she have to like it. I don't want to tie her down, she can do what she wants, buy what she feels like buying, have all the fun she would want to have, flirt, get popular, be nice, she can have it all, juggle it with studies, i mean you can only be 17 once, live it. She can go home late late which ever she likes. I don't want to care anymore. I find it stupid to be even bothered by it. That anger, and unhappiness wanting to burst out but for no reason or what-so-ever that i should even do that.

For me, i'm fine, i'm a family person. I had enough of fun.. I don't need all of those. i've met someone ideal. To be honest, who the hell wakes up at 4+ in the morning and watch movies online? Blog. Check mails.. Surf net.. 4am in the morning my dear friend. People go to sleep at four, she wakes up at four.

Just the day before i asked this question. Posted to the couples out there, do you love him/her, because of what he/she is? Or is it because you love him/her because how how much the both of you went through? I got caught up with this question. Interesting right?

Do you find yourself answering stuff like
-i like him because he's very nice, he pays for the meals, opens the door, holds my hands.
-i like her because she a national swimmer. netball captain. etc.
-i like him because he's on the headlines everyday. etc.

or do you find yourself saying
-i like him because he took out his kidney for me.
-i like her because we grew up together went through so much together, the bond is strong. There was once we blah blah blah, did blah blah blah. We cried, we laugh, we break toilet bowls together.. vomitted after a roller coaster ride together before.. etc.

huh? so how? what would your answer be? Why are you with the person that is beside you now?.. Are you still struggling to be together though the differences because you just can't let go of the times you all had together? Do are the both of you together because of some common interest? Or isit a butter trade? She gives you skin, you give her money? Is there something you actually want to get out from her and she from you?. ha.. think about it.

People like glenn ong gets all the luck. Ditch the old ugly one, married jamie yeo.. divorced.. now sticking with jean danker. fuck ass man.. some guy just gets all the luck.. and i really mean it. If you are a lucky guy, better learn to cherish it.

Friday, March 06, 2009

Thursday, March 5, 2009

i'm crying.. just why are you so nice to me.
why don't you understand we are people from two different worlds :P

Thursday, March 05, 2009

im going out for a run soon. all dressed up in my pt kit.. im damn stressed out. hair is still dripping with water. im feeling abit heaty.. good. im going to fall sick soon. i want to fall sick anyway. i want to take a break this weekend. i need to look at things again.. its been changing so much and the past 2 months its been changing so fast.

ok.. just one round. bye

Thursday, March 05, 2009

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Hi people, firstly i'm sorry that i've been gone for so long. Well since my last post i think its like 3 months plus? Ha! Alright I'll try to keep up with the writing habit alright.

Loads of stuff happened and i'll just start off brand new from today alright?

I went to the dental this morning. Just for regular cleaning. There wasn't any MC given so i guess i'll have to go back to office tomorrow and key in as leave. A leave well taken i suppose. I met up with jun after my dental and after her class and we went for movie marathon. We caught 'He's just not into you' at 1330 and 'The curious case of benjamin button' at 1530. There wasn't a break at all like we planned, the first show kind of drag through to 1540 or so and we missed abit of the starting of the second show. She's been having some issues with the boyfriend lately, i mean the issue has always been on going but the past few nights she hasn't able to sleep, some times crying so i accompanied her. We've been out frequent, gym, dinner, run etc.. got to go back to being focused on work soon, been slacking abit. Going to be confirmed soon and i don't want to extend it anymore. Actually i don't really know why i bother since i'm intending to leave after school starts.

I guess what makes me really want to stay is the bonus.. Life, its that way, you get something, you lose something. One's got to accept it. Over at the current company, the bonus is good but travelling is still a major problem, as per usual ha!

Hmm.. i've been having some issues myself. I'm lost at what to do, there is no need to do something about it, or there is? I'm not too sure. What do i really want? I'm like trap in two worlds, no matter how much i want them to exist together, i can't. It doesn't work that way. I don't know man, right now, i'm taking it as it goes. I got myself into this mess, not that i don't like it nor that i really like it but i feel tied up to this mess. I don't have room to move about. I feel so strandled. How..? Though i don't say it but its affecting me alot.. and its times like now that i don't know what to do. I'm hiding my thoughts to myself. Thoughts when spoken out need to have action, and every action has its own consiquences, it may affect one, it may affect more than one, it may have affect 1 day, 1 hour or it maybe years, maybe a life time. Do you understand my mess?.?

SNIPERS, anyone want to go on a holiday or bagpacking in june? Do share my your interest k.

Wednesday, March 04, 2009

Saturday, December 20, 2008

I feel so lonely. I called up my friend and ended up being mistaken as being drunk. Like.. nobody understands how pathetic it is. Everybody still thinks i have alot of friends..

I have to buy my own Christmas ablum this year.. and i'm sharing it with myself.

All i want for christmas is to fall in love. I can't. I don't know why. Probably can't find some one who loves me back. Lonely lonely christmas for me.. Lonely white christmas. Hanging reindeers on the top of my monitor and a red santa hat on my door. A small christmas tree in my quiet room. I guess.. Its just me and the songs and my bed.. I'm so tired.. ahh.. lonely lonely.

Nobody understands. No one cares lala la la.. and its the xmas time of the year. My favourite time of the year. Should i pamper myself with a 500+ watch? Hmm.. I need a girlfriend to spurge on each other. I need a perfume. I need to spend a bubble bath in the bath tub and red wine with turkey. Christmas carollings.

Last Christmas i gave you my heart.. but the very month you gave it away. You MIA-ed and left. This christmas i gave it to fuck up guys whose going to settle for korean dinner with Kbox after that. I RATHER STAY HOME!. So not tempting to go.. but i have no other plans. I need a girlfriend. I want to fall in love. I want to be loved and pampered back. I BLOODY WANT MY ATTENTION BUT NOBODY IS GIVING IT! ROAR. FUCK CHRISTMAS. FUCK YOU JESUS CHRIST. you made christmas a day of sharing the joy BUT I'M NOT IN JOY AT ALL!. MOFO.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Friday, December 12, 2008

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Friday, December 12, 2008

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

I haven't been blogging for awhile..
Some updates would be that i'm actually resigning. Its not confirm as to when my last day would be. I just can't survive in the enviroment. To put in good terms, they leave you there to do your stuff but that's just 'on the surface' kind of judgement. Sometimes you feel that many eyes are looking at you, many gossips are going around behind your back but just when you turn back to look at them, they act like nothing is happening.
First they said i was usually late, he said that he's got complains that i didn't hand in my assignment on time. I was so pissed off. I hate being maligned. I told them there wasn't any date line given at all, and usually when there is one, like lets say friday this week, i usually finish on tuesday and submitted already. Than he said that i never ask. Everything is - 'You never ask.'
He gave me over the weekend to decide if i am still interested in the job.
I came back early. I woke up earlier. Rush out. Dress nicely.. All prepare.
Than came, into the room again. 'I can see your not interested in the work. You've been surfing the net.' (hello, i've finish my work! And like wtf so is everybody else doing it, not just me??)
You said i was late, i came early.
Now you still say i'm not interested. Honestly speaking, I'M NOT. You tell me today i come early, 2-3 years you worry if i'll still come early or not etc. And i can tell you, i'm earlier than alot of people already and fuck you. 2-3 years down you dare say, 2-3 i'm still stuck with the drawings, i might as well leave now. I just kept quiet. I have to.. My mum isn't working. I tried to take it that -work is after all work, it will get boring but we all need the money so bear with it. I TRIED LIVING WITH THAT THEORY. I shut up and went work. I don't complain already and look who's complaining now. I mean i've always thought women are bitchs to give this kind of attitude, i didn't know that even working gives you one. If you want some thing say.. Over here at this company, they tell you 'come on, lets be frank about it, talk like a man.' I asked them what the difference between being a confirmed staff and not being one, cause he said he couldn't confirm me, and he said, 'The only difference is being confirm you need one month notice to leave the company, being not confirm, 1 week you can go already.' Nothing said about year end bonus. Nothing said about company benefits. As if that was only that. They said it like so point bankly. Doesn't really answers your question.

I'm going to dreamworks advertising pte ltd to interview tomorrow. If you want to see me in tie, blazer etc you can come meet me. They wanted me to go in professional wear, no choice. Interviewing as a sales & marketing executive. Its a good company. Very well known and i hope i can get in. Get involve in some events, do something exciting for a change, go meet new people. Make new friends. Get some connections. BUT so far i heard this company isn't as good as it seems to be. Well since i already taken leave, might as well.

Yeah well thats all for work i guess.


Absence makes the heart grow fonder. I'm so pissed yet so sad at the same time. We haven't been talking and i don't know why. Probably its me.. Partly cause she's busy with school. I don't know... Its been 3 weeks 2 days. She doesn't seem to care and it hurts me. I feel so stupid.. I'm neglected. All the 'lucas what are you doing? where are you? Want meet me later anot.' Gone. No more. Now, its 'i'm busy.'. 'My phone is spoilt.', 'No, cannot call me, later the phone auto shut down.'. 'House phone spoil cannot call out.', 'You working, you suppose to call me what.'. Stop.. .. its painful man. Maybe its PMS. I don't know.. I don't have PMS. You tell me whats wrong. Maybe cause i emo lately. 5 mins happy, 5 mins fucking sad. Hannah said i've fallen for her. I don't want to but i guess i am. Or maybe its the I-Miss-You-So-Fucking-Much syndrome. I miss the 'lucas do you need a hug?',

yes i miss it. I'd drop my wallet like 2-3 more times for it (considering that my cards are still intact and i get my wallet back). I miss the 'Do you think i'm kissable?'. I miss the 'I am cute and chubby what! Cannot meh?.'.. .. .. I'm so stressed out. I want to smile again. I want to really laugh without feeling so bad that i'm actually laughing and that i tearing alway. I'm so scared i'm not having a job soon. I'm so worried about school. I don't know if i want to start now or start 6 months later. Financial doesn't allow me to do so and i can't loan from bank since i'm resigning. I feel so jealous when everbody else is smiling and laughing away while i'm not. I some times wish they all die. Evil yes but i wish their live is 10x worse den me, 100x worse then people in poorer coutries so they can actually sense the sadness, drown the whole world with tears.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

I went to pamper myself today. Indulging in my favourite food.
Strawberry Cheesecake from venezia.




And i went to catch 'Quarentine' today.

Before i went for it, the reviews online was written:

"Quarantine", a remake of the award-winning Spanish horror "[REC]" is no exception. It's fair to say that the handheld camera technique has helped a lot in bringing out the feel of the film from the already formidable plot. Through such realistic camerawork, the audience is taken on a journey of fear, not only of the mysterious threat inside the building but the fear that is felt by the cameraman himself, in this case, the Afro-American Scott, as he and the main character Angela run, hide and fight their way to safety from the terror that has befallen upon them the moment they decided to catch a group of fire-fighters in action on camera.

Jennifer Carpenter gave an interesting performance as the lead Angela Vidal.
... ... she starts to get better and better every minute and by the time the action starts to intensify, you can smell the fear and paranoia coming from her and it feels very real. You almost want to slap her for being so annoyingly freaked!

Kudos to the writers responsible for the interesting plot. Instead of your normal zombie tragedy of 'scientific-experiments-gone-wrong', the last 15 minutes turns it into something more superior to your B-grade zombie movie. The only bane is of course the fact that at times you will feel like getting inside the movie and hold Scott's hand so he won't shake the camera too much.

And.. yes i agree. I went into the movie expecting alot from this woman and fucking hell yes, i do feel like slapping her throughout movie, i mean she's so freaking annoying, her 'half-crying' is more frequent than the moans of the zombies and her pleads for wanting the light to be shone on her because she's so afraid of the dark is really so irritating. Selfishly demanding. Shine on you already then what? still die right.

Overall
Scare Factor 4/5
Plot 3/5
Gore Factor 3/5 (its not so gore, still can accept, bloody, biting of the neck, fracture bones but still walking. To me, still ok. Not so bad.)
Actors/Actress 3.5/5 (not really the famous few but i would say not bad. A little too much but not bad.)
Throughout movie excitment 4/5 (jumpy. Like playing game. Got chase up and down, into a room, out of the room.. etc.)


Some introduction into Rabies (if you don't already know what it is, cause i do HA!)

Quarentine of rabies infected

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

Monday, December 1, 2008

I never learn my lesson..
:'( poor judgement.

Monday, December 01, 2008