Friday, February 1, 2008

I just came home not long ago. darn tired. After book out went straight to Liang's place and we played mahjong. Talk abit. Spend some time together with the guys. Lost 8bucks. Not alot. =) I always play just to entertain them, spend time together but now cannot already. Liang's been winning too much ha, so from today on, next time play mahjong with them cannot take them as friends, have to go all out and kill them. Take all their $$ hahaha!!.
Quite alot to blog but im really tired. Gotta go bathe and sleep.
Mw and hannah are like really serious this time. Mw did some thing and hannah's pissed. Mw isn't trying hard enough (so hannah says) but whatever the reason is.. it isn't good for the both of them. Hmm.. its afterall their problem. I don't want to blog much about it. Maybe not today. After i wake up bah.
I thought of buying shan her roses but i'm not going to ask her out on vday. Just hope the roses will at least make her happy if that guy happens to ditch her or something that day. I don't know. What do you all think? Should i? Some ask me for what? Why bother?.. Quite dilemma. I just wish she's well taken care of. I asked phil to go out with me. Just want to spend the day pampering someone, like how one should on vday. She's at least still considering. Its afterall a important day and not just any other day. Cannot anyhow go out with any guy. She's the kind who believes that if you have something you want to say, you will say it, so whenever i am down, i look for her, she never asks why but the funny thing about her is she doesn't take the first step. ha. Anyway.. I want to go to this "the cheesecake cafe" badly man. Their cheesecakes looks so nice in pictures. I wonder if it tastes nice too.
alright i'm really going to sleep now. Damn i still can't find replacement for 9th feb. It's a sat. I need some one to take my morning shift. The whole family are going for holiday during new year, so i've only got the weekends to celebrate/visiting and all. Honestly speaking i'm just a little pissed. Especially with the people over the next bunk. Like its damn pathetic that i have to turn to other platoons for help. My own people are like so against me. When they needed something i always try to help. When others needed replacement, they can easily find it the day before. I've been trying to get mine for the past week and i couldn't get any. Everybody is saying,"Every man for himself." It's really bastard to hear it la. I never say that kinda stuff to you all before man. Maybe i'm being too nice. Always ok ok, yes yes. I'm not being unreasonable here. Just wanted you to think about others when you are out enjoying. That's all man. I just hate it when i have to turn to others besides the family. They are the cloest you've got. They turn you down, you are equal to shit. Maybe my feelings are too much.
If i can. I wish i was cold and heartless.. I kick and kill stray pets. I spit on old faggot aunties and uncles. I walk infront of the blind and point a middle finger at them and laugh like a king. I wish i turn people down when they needed help. I wish i always give a cold shoulder. I wish i was born devil. Not being able to feel anything. No remorse. No regrets. No forgiveness. Only hatred. Only revenge. That way its so much easier. No hurt. No bad feelings. Who cares.

Friday, February 01, 2008