Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Just came back from movie. Went to watch Sweeney Todd with Ros. She asked me for that movie quite some time ago. Says its her treat and all so we picked a day. The movie's ain't that nice, got bored half way through. It's a musical movie, some thing like 'Enchanted'. Well thanks for bringing so much stuff to school and change your uniform after that to meet up for the movie. Know your tired. =) Happy Valentines Day ok.
Just felt really bad. Always appreciating the wrong people. That's my mistake and i havn't changed since. I bought flowers for phil. She picked the number 9, so i end up buying 3 sunflower and 6 red roses. 100bucks. Kinda xin tong coz she doesn't seem honoured and the flowers didn't reach its aim. It was suppose to be a trick to get her out on vday but she's out studying. She's having a paper on friday. Yeah.. just kinda felt that i could have given those flowers to some one else. Some one who i felt i owe them something. Hmm.. anyway whats done is done. Just get over it.
Shan's online. Don't want to talk to her. I guess its better this way. I need time away from her. I hope she's having plans tomorrow. Or well she can work tomorrow. The restaurants are gonna be busy with the vday's orders anyway.
Having dinner with zhijun on monday. Asking her out is always a tricky war. You've gotta plan every single thing before you can ask her out. Where to eat. What movie to see. What time to meet. Where to eat. What to do. And you know how lazy i am to make this kinda decisions. =)
Hope everyone have fun this vday. I'm most prob staying home and game ba. haha.

Been sleeping very little ever since deployment start. Night shifts , late gaming and all... Starting to shrink. Shorter now. White hair getting more. I hardly have the time to go for run. Hardly swim or tan now. Just yeah, sense myself weaker and older every minute. Hmm.. that's all ba. end here. =) nights ppl.

I don't want to get attached. I'm not after some one. So far, i don't see anyone that i can bring back and meet my family. It's better of being friends. I'm scared. I dare not lose. I dare not to even try. I'm being nice but just as friends. I don't understand love. Hoping some one will let me know but well, what is it actually? How much can you put in it? How much isit worth for you to trust it. Family love.. Love between a boy and a girl. Loving your pet. Loving the stuff you possess, clothes, watch, shoes. There's so many of them. What isit actually? How much do you know about it? You tell me =) cause i really don't know. I've learn to find importance in other stuff. Work. Friends. Game. Doing the best in whatever's given to you. It's upmost important now. Like i told mw, some people, you treat them nice but they don't give a fuck about you. Some people who treated you nice, you will never appreciate. Come on, stop being a typical human. Stop being that typical lucas. Learn. Learn to be something else. Learn to let people change for you and stop changing for some one else. Learn to be the own you. Learn to be yourself and be proud of it.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008