Sunday, March 30, 2008

I read a story till 3plus am last night.
In the story it said, "Tell me, two hours ago, who were you thinking of?”
--answer--
“Who are you thinking of now?”
--answers the same person--
“And if you’re still thinking of him two hours later, you’re in love. Gwan, love is a simple thing. It’s either you love, or you don’t. You can try everything, almost everything to prevent yourself from loving, but it all boils down to this: Either you love, or you don’t.”

Sometimes its so simple. You know it, but you just wouldn't admit it.
Been acting alittle strange lately. Its just 'friends' but i find myself waiting for her to initate conversation. She did it at times. Ever since the time she said,"can you text me to see if i'm up tomorrow for work?".. i gave in. After much resisitance she hid on my arms cause she was scared in the movie, while i jumped in shock. She didn't lay long but she did lay. I really had fun that day, though really tired. I miss your smile. I miss your attention. I miss how easily one short sms from you, that you initate would make me jump up and down.. Your kinda hot and cold attitude. When will it be hot again?.. another few yrs??. Its 8yrs since i know you. We've always been hot and cold. hot and cold. Never lasted.

I'm acting all so strange lately.. I thought we are friends. I want to keep it that way. I'm sad. I can't take hurt again and i'm afraid. I wish its simple. I wished i never think so much.

I wished i never told you to take my hand but yet i wish you do it again.
Everytime we came across some related topics, we would quickly push it away saying, "your my friend not my girlfriend/boyfriend.. etc, so it ok blah blah don't get the wrong idea", but down inside i wish i hadn't say it, i wished you didn't mean it. I usually kept quiet and agree with you on that. Its better anyway.

Sunday, March 30, 2008