Tuesday, March 11, 2008

I just simply hate it.
When you ask some one to call u back and that person doesn't.
Damnit.
Even if your busy,
Even if you fell asleep.
Have the tendency to tell the other pissed off fucker
Whose waiting for your call
What happened?
And even if YOU mother fucker don't feel sorry at all..
Please for the sake of saying it.
"Sorry"

I'm.. sorry for the use of vulgar. Putting strong words to my comment thats all. Just pissed. It's not the first time people is doing that to me. Obviously your not the first. I hate it and i really really mean i HATE it.
Cos you know why?.. It just proves to me that you don't even care. Even as a friend. Honestly speaking, i don't have a lot of friends and i don't intend to make alot. I don't want to keep myself busy entertaining too many people. I happy with the friends i've got and i intend to make "good" friendship out of it.
But from the way i see it, if i can care as much. WHY CAN'T YOU? It's not fair and if i have more friends, damnit. You yourself counted it that day. 8yrs. 8yrs of friends, ex, girlfriend, neighbourhood friend, sec sch friend, i don't know what else we are. 8yrs but honestly we aren't close at all. I'm trying.. so just tell me what's wrong..

I don't know.. i think i care too much. This shouldn't have been an issue. I like you but i don't think we suit. Seriously. No wonder we never work out. We went gym. We went running. I cancel my other plans just to meet you for meals. Picked a weekend to share it with you. Shared the umbrella. Bought cookies for you. Bought you a necklace. Sometimes its real nice. Sometimes its bad. This bad. You bought me a Polo T and you told me the color suits me, which to me, means you especially picked it what. Your nice.. AND YOUR BAD. Like what the fuck right ladies and gentleman. WOMAN!.. SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND.

I know..
That day you say i do this do that, you didn't ask for me to do it.
Yes i know..
BUT IT DOESN'T MEAN YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO BE SO EVIL TO ME!.

And damnit shan isn't back yet. She come back i also don't know what to do. Will she look for me anot, that's like a question with answers nobody will know unless your living in her brain. She look for me also wouldn't be the same anymore. I don't think i can talk as much to her already. No click. Feelings are fine when i don't see her. It's always different when she's next to me.. At least that time with her i know we can communicate. I don't have to try to entertain. It comes naturally.


AND FUCK YOU SNIPERS. LOOK AT THE BLOODY BUNK.
ITS A MESS.
MESS!!!..
FUCKING HELL. YOU ALL GO OUT FIELD COME BACK WHY DON'T CLEAR YOUR BAGS?
DROP EVERYTHING ONE CORNER.
NOW THE NEW SNIPERS GOING FOR COURSE, TOOK OUR BAG WITH THEM..
AND EMPTIED WHAT EVER THAT IS INSIDE.
AND GUESS WAD?
-PEOPLE'S PACK 1 (CLOTHES, UNDERWEAR, SOCKS, UNIFORM, ETC)
-GROUND SHEET (DAMN MUDDY ONE)
-ET STICK
-COURSE MATERIALS (WOOD STICK. HAND BOOK. RUBBISH PIECES OF PAPER)
-CB STILL GOT WET TISSUE WHICH I BET ITS NOT EVEN WET ANYMORE
DAMN PISSED OFF.
I'M ALREADY NOT SLEEPING ON MY OWN BED. WHY?
-PEOPLE ALWAYS SIT/LIE ON MY BED SURF NET.
-SMOKE AT MY AREA.
-NEVER CLOSE THE WINDOW AND RAIN GETS IN, WET THE BED SHEETS.
-CHARGE HP/IPOD/PSP
-BOIL WATER, COOK.. ALL AT MY AREA.
DOESN MEAN THE MINI HIGH 5 UNDER MY BED MEANS YOU ALL CAN DO SHIT THERE OK.
AND WHO EVER OPEN MY LOCKER, PLEASE FUCKING ASK FIRST.
AT LEAST BOTHER TO SMS AND LET ME KNOW, ITS NOT THAT I DON'T WANT TO LEND YOU WHAT EVER YOU MAY WANT.
I DON'T MIND.
BUT YOU ALL FAGGOTS, OPEN LIAO NEVER LOCK THE CUPBOARD BACK.
TOO BAD ANYWAY I CHANGE LOCK LIAO. I INTEND TO FUCK YOU ALL UPSIDE DOWN NOW.

I'M TOO NICE ALREADY.
AND HONESTLY THE BUNK ISN'T WELCOMING ANYMORE.
I'M RELUNCTANT TO BOOK IN.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008