Sunday, March 16, 2008

See i bought miss tan this..
"1st airport in asia to bring in Victoria Secrets Fragrance"
Bought her the gift pack. Quite cheap only. =D lesser then 50bucks ha. They have pink and purple. Pink smell too strong. Too sweet. This one more mild..






Saw this at Taka's WATSONS.. wanted to buy chingting. Coz she's my mousy! ha. Im the elephant. Sadly. Hey dumb dumb.. dinner when? ha



Ming Wei slacking with the PSP.



Hmm quite a number of stuff happened. I had a funny dream about miss tan today. There's alot of numbers, statistics, and miss tan was like smsing some stuff like i kinda bother her alot and she doesn't like it. She's asking me to stop or else.. blah blah. I dreamt that i was replying her saying im sorry and man i woke up. I woke up and my phone wasn't on my hands. There wasn't any sms-es and i text miss tan and told her about it. She said im funny, told me not to be crazy ha. Well at least it just a dream. She doesn't find me annoying. Ha. Me and miss tan we had PIZZA HUT on sat. Both of us we order a Personal Pan Pizza (super supreme). Next time order hawaiian liao. She don't eat the green green thing only i got eat. =) ha. We order another Chicken SPAG. I eat alot la, she also never eat much. The spag she eat like 3-4 spoons and the pizza she eat 1/4 of it only =( end up i one person swallow all. ARGH! MIss tan!!.. Tmr meeting you clementi botak jones for dinner. YOU bettER EAt MOrE!~

Hmm.. well i waited 35mins for bus 67 today. Nothing unsual.

Shan is back. She texted me. And she asked how i am doing with ros. Funny question. I don't understand why she brought ros up. Anyway.. i told her ros and me are just friends. Its not possible and she said smthing like ros like me for so long already and all.. she says maybe it takes time. Well i totally got pissed off i shot her back saying, "Not now. Not ever. Not possible. I'm stubborn." well. yeah. I'm just still very hurt. I told ching ting about it and guess what she said?

"Hmm.. girls can be a bitch at time. They may want to drop you close. She just wanted to know you are still here. Don fall for it. Not worth."

I've got friends who cheer me up. Even miss tan tried being funny for once ha. =D made me smile.

Maybe because i still have feeling for her. I feel so sad and hurt still. Just thinking about what we went through. I can't forget. Even when everybody isn't standing up for you, i myself felt that i should. Like i once know you before. That's not the way you are, thats not what you are trying to do, that's not whats on your mind. I keep defending for you.. but at times, i don't even know if i'm right, i don't even know if i still know who you are. So i told myself, i can't be still falling for you. Yes my emotions are partically controlled by you but you were gone, i'm fine, i lived with it. So tell me, people ask if i still like you, i say, "how can i?". I don't even dare admit because the things i've done, doesn't prove so. So ask me again if i still want you back, or any hope of it?

My answer to it is,
I would rather have some ting i can rely on. Some thing that has been always around. My friends for example. Some thing that is hard and i know i wouldn't fall again. I'm just scared to give everything to some one again.
I'm nice to people around me because i want them to be nice to me. I miss people around me coz i wished they miss me too. I cared for people around me, if they've eaten. If they had a bad day.. just coz i wish they cared for me too. Whatever i did, i just wish sm1 would give me back the same. That's all.

Is it too much to ask for?

Sunday, March 16, 2008