Saturday, July 26, 2008

First of all.. its a shit day. I'll not say much.. too much to write down. Too much heart felt complains. Too much fuck ups.

I'm sorry i drag the platoon back today.. Sorry.

Well i took some pictures...

You guys are bunch of bullshits, say 0600 wake up. I woke up and turn on the lights just in case encik come and spot check and this is what you all were doing ha.


Say 0615 go breakfast.. and at 0625.. you all were still..


0700 then wake up..


And started area cleaning..




I know its my fault, a human temptation to drop the rubbish at the third floor but after giving much thoughts to it when being punished.

I just felt that some officers are fuck up. Seriously most officers are. If i am one, and i know that my fellow officers rubbish are left at third floor, i bloody hell go throw it myself. So you officer, so you pride, want save face infront of the men. So you go look for the culprit, but my question to you, "whose rubbish was it?" and when every body suppose to be back the night before, "where were you? coming back in the morning driving ur father's bloody toyota wish?" Hmm.. so much for the saying -- lead by example. Ha. Just shows me how fuck up your OCS training was. I'm fucked up. I admit. Well your none the better. Infact your worse :) How many times we cleaned up your toilet for you? Throw your rubbish and all you did was to save your own face infront of the men? Ha.. seriously how many people pointing middle fingers behind you??..

My mum says i have a weird temper. She don't know where i learn it from. I can mind the very simple things at one time and i can also just close one eye.. I'm tempermental. I seriously don't know where i learn it from but i believe in fair reasoning. I wanted to take up law study as one of my diplomas. Just shows up much i love to give a good fight for something. Lawyers don't earn alot now so i thought not, plus my english isn't as good anymore. I used to hate chinese so much but now i'm speaking it. Can't believe this shit is happening.

Sigh. back to camp tomorrow night. ORD parade falls on coming thursday. ORD dinner falls on coming friday. So much to do next week..

And i feel really bad. I asked my mum today if i did grow up with no love. I went to play basketball alone. I went taka after camp today and bought the green top myself. I see big families eat together. They have enough people to occupy 2 tables, just imagine. I grow up, without siblings. Just me.. and my mum. Always that peace and quiet. I've always love to turn on the music, even though i'm not listening. Turn on the tv although i'm not watching. The reason i always give myself is that it makes the house more lively. Gives you the feeling that theres more people. Getting used to being alone, growing up alone, doesn't mean i like to be alone. Yes some times i want that kind of peace and quiet but at times i also wish there's a right company. I can't remember when's the last time i catch a show. Seems pretty long to me. Phil is pretty busy with sch work and all.. I keep getting rejected but yet i'm still waiting for our dark knight to happen. X-files just released too. So many movies to see. Next week there's more. Sigh..
Next month gotta register for school already.
Need to type out a resume for work.
Need to mail my citibank card details.
Need to go back charlize there collect my pay.
Need to go catch a movie. With who?.. I'm strictly restrictly people. I rather go out with my guys instead.. Ros has been watching quite a sum of movies already, its just not right to ask. I mean wouldn't you get sick of it?..
Need to go run. For nike. For AHM(army half marathon).
Need to go do clearance for ORD.
Sigh.. I'm just really so fucking stressing myself up and especially all that happened last night and today.. I was happily watching dvd myself, inside my room. Off the lights, lie on bed, getting cosy, the call came and said all on short term MC need to go back.. Wah liao. Sigh.. Troy in on tv now. Just now was the mummy 1, all i watch before already, at least 2-3 times before. Singapore kinda really sucks already.
Considering people my age overseas? Fking pour orange squash at the beach everyday they also happy, why is my life so stress up? Funny right??..

Sometimes i really think its what you want in life, ni zhi zhao de (you seek wad you reap, you reap what you soul or something like that)..

Saturday, July 26, 2008