Thursday, July 3, 2008

hey hi people hello~
well i'm back from camp. listening to radio online. Class 95fm if you really want to know... Nothing much that i'm doing. I played a round Dota, got sick of the noobs, wonder what my guys are doing, if they are free for a game, i need better players, better teamwork. The game is so much more fun playing with people you know then with on you side. Even if sometimes we don't win but hey, we hardly lose ^^
Anyway really finally back home. Stayed in for four days and i cant stand it already. Just not used to it.. Sigh going to ORD already. Honestly not very happy about it. This year has been a boring one. Considering deployment and the slackness in camp, we basically call it our chalet, and of cause.. All the extra extra stuff like static display, extra's given for very very minor stuff. ETC etc..
Sort of bring back the first year of NS. Life is like hell but time passes by so fast. Everyday you run like dog.. train train. Go out field. You hardly see your bunk, you lie on bed with uniform all on, cause you hardly have the time to see it, lunch was fast, out to breathe the afternoon humid forest and back for dinner, out again at night. When its all dark and everyone is sleeping, you walk.. walk.. with all your equipment, your rifle, you walk... a never ending road, you just walk.. look at your map, take a short drink and walk again.. Nothing to think about. No need to think what on the training schedule tomorrow..
I cried serving army before but its long before.. I cried doing night duty at the jungle with my best buddy, my sec sch fren. Told him how much i miss home and that it sucks why i am there where i am.. Those were the times. The hardship.. 2 more months its all going to be over but i'm not looking forward to it. Honestly serving NS doesn't pay you as much as outside. Its an experience i must say. A worthwhile one. Bring out that man in you when you need it. Teaches you to be strong and stay strong. Strengthen your will power, when all else fails, thrive and you will survive. Persist. Endure. Think straight no matter how shag you are. You don't just worry for yourself. As a commander, no, you are not allowed to. Its times when you put others before you.
Ahh.. those were the times that i will always remember. Your brothers. Those that bleed for you, with you.. Sweat with you. Burn weekends together. Sleep under the sun, under the stars by you.

I guess my time, i mean, my time on this world is soon to be up. I've come to a point where i understand the society so much. And the other person who i think would understand it too is lewis. Just today.. mal said,"Want to look for a girl who would only go out with you if you have a car and money isn't difficult, but if you want to look for some one who would still go out with you if you have neither, is difficult. And if you want a girl who is rich and has a car but you have none to go out with you.. its extreme difficult." We laughed but how true ha. Thats what the world has become. Materialistic. You have people tell you they are lazy to go out with you cause going out with you means they have to go public.

No. I'm not turning gay. Just.. pretty sick of it. It doesn't amaze me anymore, i've grown to accept it. People come people go.. The fact that "Friends are forever". Means "bullshit" to me. Take for example.. Some people, "I'm angry with you." Goes disappearing for 3 weeks and back again. To such people, i've given up ^^ frankly speaking yes i'm done with it. No wishes on your birthday. I don't give shit if its your 21th. I don't really care. No presents for you too. To all those who ignored me and yet its wrong when i ignore you.. What fairness is there? To those who text me because they feel abliged to when some one else ask them to. Thank you but no thank you.. I don't see the sincerity in it but oh well.. i'm not going to pick a fight since people always feel that i am.. I'll just keep my mouth shut.

To who remembered our friendship anniversary. 30th June. Yes i've forgotten ha. All the years you've remembered. Thanks. ^^ i'll remember it this time. you said i've been always there ha i think it's pretty bullshit cause i hardly cared about you. Well that's the world, those you don't cared about cared more. Those you cared more, simply don't care. That's the world ha. Sadistic to a certain level. CHEAP. they call it.

Anyway yeah.. thanks. I'm thankful for the frens who stayed. No matter how bad i am. Towards them. Towards myself. My life sucks. I lead a boring life. Trying to get a life meant i'm hum sup ha. So be...

Hmm.. i miss basketball.. if not life is back to basketball every night. You train till 10+ reach home bathe, have a game with your guys. Go to sleep. Club on friday. Chill with the gals/guys on sat. Share time with your gf and family tgt on a sun. Thats pretty good life. Life now is just.. .. well.. i hope weekend comes soon. 2 more days and i get to swim. and suana. and come monday, =) get to watch movie. get to see cat.. Funny no school one. Good life. HA...

You know.. i'm blogging shit. haha. i don't know what i'm actually typing.. it maks no sense at all. the sentence doesn't link. No head no tail. but.. haha ros. Victoria secrets for you?? Kisses for mac delivery k ^^ haha

Thursday, July 03, 2008