Tuesday, October 14, 2008

In time, people have changed. You never know what really is, what really isn't.
I once called you a bitch, we got so worked up over it, you got so pissed off, we broke up.
Now, you yourself tell me every girl is a bitch.
You used to say you don't like clubbing, but whats happening now?
And lets be fair. I've changed too.
I can stick one one friend, or 2-3 close friend but now, i'm exploding. My friends are all around now.
And i just give everybody the fair share so that i ain't bias to anybody and that people start mistaking that i'm after this or after that..

I do so wish i don't care. That i don't care whats is going around but i can't.
I wanted to give friendship a chance, to get you out and talk to you, bring everything out and make things clear but it ended worse.
I'm sorry that i have been busy and that i haven't been catching up with you, that i don't know where you are at. How you've been doing at home etc.
Don't tell me your disappointed that i didn't know you and that i didn't trust you cause all the things that its happening, what people do, i don't understand anymore. People change. I did, you did too.. tell me what am i suppose to believe in? Even you, never understand that i do want to settle down. I just kept quiet when you said, you don't see me as the kind that will settle down. Well i tell you now, i want to, I just haven't find the right one. I'm looking and looking. All this you don't know.. I just can't believe that when i gave in everything, i tried to makes things all nice and stuff i don't get anything in return or that i even see no hope or future in anything, and now that when i don't do all this, I'm being blamed for it. I complained to you about my shit job, you said why didn't i even talk to you about it first, and when i did, consult you that i wanted to change my course of study, you said you wasn't my girlfriend and that why should i even talk to you about it.. Yeah girls are a bitch. You said it yourself, what else do you want me to say?..

and now, its u and me. not them. i don give a fuck about them anymore. I shouldn't have felt bad for either side.

I don't understand girls. I really don't, i've lost touch already.. Looking at our picture, my heart softens but at the same time the hate is so overwhelming still. So much of so much but nothing promising..

Tuesday, October 14, 2008