Saturday, December 20, 2008

I feel so lonely. I called up my friend and ended up being mistaken as being drunk. Like.. nobody understands how pathetic it is. Everybody still thinks i have alot of friends..

I have to buy my own Christmas ablum this year.. and i'm sharing it with myself.

All i want for christmas is to fall in love. I can't. I don't know why. Probably can't find some one who loves me back. Lonely lonely christmas for me.. Lonely white christmas. Hanging reindeers on the top of my monitor and a red santa hat on my door. A small christmas tree in my quiet room. I guess.. Its just me and the songs and my bed.. I'm so tired.. ahh.. lonely lonely.

Nobody understands. No one cares lala la la.. and its the xmas time of the year. My favourite time of the year. Should i pamper myself with a 500+ watch? Hmm.. I need a girlfriend to spurge on each other. I need a perfume. I need to spend a bubble bath in the bath tub and red wine with turkey. Christmas carollings.

Last Christmas i gave you my heart.. but the very month you gave it away. You MIA-ed and left. This christmas i gave it to fuck up guys whose going to settle for korean dinner with Kbox after that. I RATHER STAY HOME!. So not tempting to go.. but i have no other plans. I need a girlfriend. I want to fall in love. I want to be loved and pampered back. I BLOODY WANT MY ATTENTION BUT NOBODY IS GIVING IT! ROAR. FUCK CHRISTMAS. FUCK YOU JESUS CHRIST. you made christmas a day of sharing the joy BUT I'M NOT IN JOY AT ALL!. MOFO.

Saturday, December 20, 2008